Due to my ongoing health condition, I have made the very difficult decision to pause my practice and teaching schedule for a while. My bodywork practice will be on hold for a bit as well.
It's become abundantly clear to me over the past several weeks that I have been trying to do too much, and while any person who is trying to get a new business up and running can tell you it is exhausting, trying to do it while working a full-time job to pay the bills, and care for two boys, and on top of that being sick with a now-chronic illness, is just not a good idea at all.
So, I have chosen myself. I have chosen to listen to my internal guidance, as I would tell any of my students to do, and take a clear and defined break. I'm cutting back on my social engagements, cutting out working with clients, for now, and stopping my twice weekly Ashtanga practice and my teaching schedule.
I'll continue to do my restorative classes (as a student) and I will continue to study and practice meditation at home during this sabbatical. My hope is that I will come back refreshed and renewed and ready to teach with gusto again in September.
I'm working really hard to let go of the fear that I will not return to this goal, once I have stopped the momentum. This is the reason I was pushing forward when I should have been pausing. I am choosing to "embrace the fear" and not let it control me. The fear will be there whether I push through or not, so I am choosing rest and contemplation, meditation and restoration, over pushing the limits of what is healthy for my body, and my mind.
Hope to see you all again in September! I'm sure that I will be here blogging from time to time, at least to give updates to my status.
~Namaste, Shanti, Shanti, Shanti, Om~
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