(This exercise was taken from a book called Awaken Your Genius, by Carolyn Elliot. I have been working my way through the exercises in the book, and it has helped me tremendously on my journey towards claiming my "healer" title. In this exercise it is suggested that you choose someone who you feel is a guide to you, either in your waking life or your dream life. This person can be someone who either attracts or repels you, either one can be a helpful tool to begin to see qualities about yourself that you would like to express more. This conversation is with one of my teachers, who is someone that I have felt very drawn to since I took my first class with her. The key is that you write the whole conversation yourself, by telling that person what you admire/dislike about them, and then asking them what they would like you to know and writing their answers to you in their voice. It seems a little crazy at first but it was a very powerful exercise for me.)
Me: You are so inspiring to me. Your heart shines through your words and your face, and it makes me want to always be around you. I feel inspired by your dedication to your craft and by your obvious dedication to your inner journey. What do you want to tell me?
Her: You too can be open and loving towards yourself in the ways I have learned to be. I was not always this way. I used to hurt and feel unworthy. I used to self-harm and doubt myself. I would smoke and drink too much just like R. did and like you did, because I did not know how to deal with the feelings that were inside of me, burning me up from the inside. I had to do a lot of meditation, near-constant meditation and chanting, Asana is only a part of it-really the joy I feel is found on breaking through the deep sadness and the darkness inside of your heart.
First, you have to forgive yourself.
Me: I put you on a pedestal. I think you are a better, more advanced person than me. In my admiration of you, I forget that you and I are the same. I forget that we are one being and I can learn and unlearn the behaviors that I want to become in order to be more like you because I already have that inside me.
When I place you above me, I continue the story that I am not good enough to do what you do. If I can drop this story, and know that I am as good and pure and wise and true as you are, I can drop the illusion that I am not good enough. I would like to drop the illusion and become my highest potential, which is to be a conduit for others’ healing.
Her: Yes! When you drop the illusion that you are not good enough, you open to the potential in the universe. The universe wants you to heal and become your highest self so that you can also help others become their highest selves.This is your true potential. You have this gift too, I know because you are talking to me. I know that you have the ability to create and to grow this.
Reading what Roxanne wrote to you last night, you know that is also true for you. You already have the gifts. Now you just have to deeply believe that your gifts will bring people to you and that those people-- the ones you are helping with your gifts, will compensate you for them. You will be provided for with abundance. I am so excited for your journey with this!
Take this owl bracelet and wear it each day to remind you that you have the divine knowledge and the gifts you will need to bring forth this future.
You have incredible power within you to bring about deep healing for your clients and those you come in contact with. That is why people are drawn to you. That is why people want to be in your energy. You have already done much of the work that allows you to reside in this higher energetic plane. Now it is your task to bring that gift to others, with joy and light.
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